English singer, songwriter and multi-instrumentalist Ellie Goulding has opened up on her battles with anxiety and panic attacks, which affected her so much so as to even not being able to leave her house.
The Grammy-nominated singer is currently in the midst of a UK tour to promote her third album, Delirium. In an interview with magazine Flare, Goulding spoke about her struggles with anxiety and panic attacks when trying to deal with her new-found fame.
Flare: You struggled with panic attacks earlier in your career. How did you learn to cope?
Goulding: By having cognitive behavioural therapy. I was sceptical at first because I’d never had therapy, but not being able to leave the house was so debilitating. And this was when my career was really taking off. My surroundings would trigger a panic attack, so I couldn’t go to the studio unless I was lying down in the car with a pillow over my face. I used to beat myself up about it.
Flare: Do you still have attacks?
Goulding: There were a couple of times after I released Delirium when I was doing promo and thought, Oh god, it’s coming back, it’s coming back, but it didn’t. I think my body has become quite good at controlling anxiety.
Flare: On Twitter you said you were going to take a break from music after this tour. True?
Goulding: Yes. I’m still going to be writing, but it’s been so overwhelming the past few years that it’s time to go away for a little bit and be out of the limelight. It’s really a commitment, being on the road; you almost put everything on hold—seeing family, seeing friends. I’ve missed so many weddings and births. It will be nice to wake up and know I don’t have anything to do.